Friday, October 31, 2014

Was feeling daring. These had just arrived
A small party, mostly friends, the perfect time to be risque. Skinny black jeans, stilettos, an unconstructed jacket and these.


Thursday, October 30, 2014

Friday, October 24, 2014

In about an hour, I'll leave to meet Emile in Biarritz. This evening we'll go dine out alone. Tomorrow evening, he is planning a party at his house and is expecting approximately 30 people. I'm to be the hostess, I need to get excited about my role.


Thursday, October 23, 2014

I've come to terms with being this woman, the Jimmy-Manalo-Christian shoes. The Chanel-Vuitton-Hermès bags. The fur jacket, a gift from Emile, Christmas last. Not the frou-frou dog, at least not yet. Being the kept woman.

When I arrived in Paris eleven years ago,I wouldn't have believed that this was what I'd become. But I started down the path not that long after arriving. The change was gradual and when I recognized what was happening I fought it, though halfheartedly. Acceptance brings relief.


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Emile is gone for a week and my presence was not required. My plan was to come to the village but before leaving I ran into a pair of my motorcycle friends.

They planned a ride Saturday and I joined them. We met early, before first light, at a cafe in the east suburbs and road toward Soissons taking the small roads. We stopped for lunch in Acy and started back on a different route arriving home near dusk.

I felt bad for Wags as he spent a long day alone. But it was a good day for me as I spent time with people that I like, doing something I enjoy and frankly, this summer I neglected both these friends and the bike.

Sunday I lunched with Natalie and Ruth, her partner. It was good to see them as it has been a while. Truth be told I've been isolating myself from many of my friends.

Today, I'm in the village and will be here till the weekend when I'll join Emile in Biarritz. It's quiet, as it is in the off season during the week, but the weather is pleasant, though rain is expected this evening with the remainder of the week dry. And the surf is up.


Friday, October 17, 2014

Before leaving for Tunisia, Grace called me to ask if her husband ever made sexual advances towards me. He hadn't. Yes there were exchanges of double entendres, often with her present, but nothing serious.

She thanked me and hung up. During the trip I received a message that she had left Robert and had filed for divorce. I wasn't surprised, but saddened none the less. Since returning, we've had a chance to speak and it seems he actively pursued some women in her social circle and recently. It was enough.

She's coming for Thanksgiving and I look forward to seeing her.


Thursday, October 16, 2014

May I remove your panties?


Then what are you going to do?

You'll see.